well bugger

Another night and I'm sitting torn on what to do about this ol' blog. A part of me wants to delete it entirely because I don't feel like I'm getting what I initially wanted out of it, an outlet. The other part doesn't want to give up on it, because I'm not a give up kind of personality. When I first started, this was really fun and I was feeling like I was getting something out of it. But now I dread getting on, struggling to write something more sufficient than how my day was or "blah I don't want to write," which, lets face it, has been more often than not. Only one person has read all of my posts (that I can tell by the stats they give you on here) and that's my husband. I know I said I didn't care about an audience, and while that's partially true, I feel like not having one has almost stifled my creativity because it seems no one is interested. I didn't want to broadcast this thing but I put a link on my facebook for my close friends and fam to see and even kept the wall post "Becki has recently update her websites," hoping people would be clever and check it out, but I'm afraid my expectations of people's cleverness is much too high. That, or no one cares.

Gonna think on it some more, but I really feel like doing away with this and maybe finding a concept to work with or just sticking to Yelp and Yahoo Answers for my writing need.  I think what I really need is a pen name and a blog where I can be unequivocally me to talk about whatever and whomever I wanted without anyone ever knowing it's me.